1 year older already. 19 years old.



My maximum education attainment is a O level certificate.
I have NO savings that can last me for at least a month.
I have no plans for my future. ( University, Jobs,Family, Relationships) 

I am just stepping one step at a time to try my luck out and this luck is depleting fast. 

It has probably been a long time since i have either no girlfriend, or no target! 

That's probably the reason why i have more self-control; Over LOTS of things.

When i have a partner,  i tend to drift to NEGATIVE externalities ; ****** ( many many)

But it becomes a habit after a while, and despite peer pressure, i don't smoke nor do i shisha.

hardcore partying and sort of thing. 

I soon realize that girls see things faster than guys.Things that refer to the the relative importance of studies as compared to gaming. They see the importance of savings( not ALL) but at least the girl i know. 

It just hit right on the nail. Everything she ask or persuaded me to DO. It's for my own good, not hers or anyone else. 

I shouldn't talk about my "perfect" girlfriend anymore HAHA. I said i was going to let it go. I said it, I mean it. 

We are from 2 different worlds. I know nothing about arts, I know nothing about saving =X . I have no figure nor face. HAHA. =X 

And you will get someone so much better. It is just the matter of time. And i shall move on, like i always did. It is just that this time, i won't be like secondary school or Jc, whereby there are girls around in school for me to CHASE HAHA. Army will be so different. More contact with guys than ever. -.-''' Sucks big time.

Maybe its a sign. In one of my old blog entries, i said that i wont have any girlfriend from army till Uni( if i ever get into one) o.o'''

Thats because i need to get my finance plan working, and hopefully by the time i start Uni, i am already receiving half the pay a working adult can get from dividend yearly, Ceteris Paribus. ( assuming i dont go club, drink , fuck around, mahjong, cab, go overseas, buy clothes , chalet, and party etc.) 

Pretty impossible eh. LOL. 

They say when one get enlightened on relationships woes, even if they are not together with the girl they LOVE, as long as the girl is living her life happily, he will be gladly satisfied already. I think i am getting enlightenment soon. I see you having smiles around your life <3 stay this way.